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I reread my post from yesterday and I'm not going to take it down. I'm sorry if what I feel and think offends people, but its how I feel. It would have been more respectful for me to say things different, but it would change the fact that those are my feelings and thoughts.

I'm so sick and tired of hearing about racist injustice and feelings of contempt towards white people for marginalizing and keeping minorities down. It makes me sick to know that some people base their existence off of fighting the man and rising up against their white oppressors. What ever happened to our self worth as human beings? Where did that go? Why isn't it enough to be yourself instead of joining people that look like you. I don't have that pleasure and I know it. I can't find something in common with another person just because I look like them...it just doesn't work that way for "white" America. White America is diverse and full of ideas so polar of each other some can't even have rational, calm conversations when left to their own devices. Why can't people that associate themselves with minority groups look at the differences inside their groups and embrace them?

Seriously, The more we make it "US and THEM" the more we fuck ourselves. Almost like the quote from francis' When the Purple Settles. I do feel guilty, but what else can I say? If people of minority race are able to congregate based off of common ancestry and fraternize based off of a assumed shared belief system, why can't I do the same? I can't and all of you know it, none of us can. Its just not helping anyone.

Some would argue, we need to group together to protect yourselves. There is merit in the statement but in the end it'll only divide our nation further. The racists of the past are dying out, don't help create new racists for tomorrow. Its so easy to turn everything into a hate party and I have to catch myself from just blowing through emotions blindly.

I hope this puts things in perspective and makes my statements a little less offensive if any of you were offended.