Better Late Than Never

I just finished reading Kimchee and Chitlins.

It was an emotional ride for me because I feel so strongly about race relations, especially those between black people and people of other ethnicities. I hate to say this and I hate to feel this way and it makes me feel guilty, but reading what the character Reverend was saying in the play made me fill up with so much emotion I was afraid I would throw the book across the room. After reading the End of Racism I couldn't help but feel anger towards any group or people who pushed their strife onto white America, not just black people as a group. I know its racist to say this, but its time for minorities to wake up and realize that the beds they lie on have not been made by white people, but by themselves because they have made the choice to lie where ever they may be.

This might seem insensitive, but I've honestly had enough of people complaining about racism this and racism that. Do you think in the end any of this shit matters? HONESTLY, if you want something, racism of today's America is not going to stop you, in fact if you pull the "racism" card you will be pushed to the forefront of whatever field you choose and that is something I wish wouldn't happen, but it is our reality.

The reverends statement that Black people cannot be racist because they have no power is utter blasphemy to my ears. Racism is not the consensus. It is the interactions we have with our neighbors, friends, teachers, and bosses, it is not who we associate with but whom people associate us. I'm not a minority and my skin isn't dark, but I know what it feels like to be discriminated against and I know what it feels like to be marginalized for something I cannot change. Everyone can act white to make it "okay", but I'm unwilling to change who I am as a person just so I can fit in and make friends "their" way. I know what it means to have someone project their racism onto me and expect that its my racism being pushed onto them...it makes me sick and humiliates me because where do I stand? A white man cannot call out a black man calling him a racism bigot. To many, my standing up would be racist...even our own cries for help as people are deemed unworthy as the cries of a group member, a nobody, a racist and certainly not an INDIVIDUAL.