So I finally showed up to class. I was proud of myself because I think I finally started to "get" it. Francis's class are never about what you are learning, but about what you learn from learning what you are learning...if that makes any sense haha.

my goals are still to reach my toes by the end of the semester and read the entire Ramayana, both of which I have a long way to go. If I can do those things I will have accomplished what I wanted.

I also need to finally finish up my movies and stop ignoring them. I have 3 films 3/4 finished Francis and its killing me that they just sit there with out text. I have a feeling that they'll be done after spring break because I plan on locking myself in my room at home till they are done.

Even though I enjoyed what we did last class and thought it was the right thing to do, I still think that it was too cold to have class outside, especially a dancing class :(

I guess thats why I'm not there today, its kind of a bad pattern. It seems that thursdays just aren't good days for me. I had an exam this morning that was way harder than I could have imagined, but thats fined, should have studied more. Hopefully the whether is nicer next week because I would like to go to both classes and learn what Francis has to teach. More than ever I wish that everything was the same as it was at the beginning of the week so that class could continue as normal, but sadly things won't ever be the same. All we can do is move forward and I guess having class outside is party of things never being the same. I understand the statement, its just that I was comfortable in PBK, but now I have to step outside of my comfort zone...again. I admire all of you who came to class today. You have more conviction than I do. Hopefully I will be able to join you next week :).

I've missed two classes. I'm not too proud of it, but I think that it was the right thing to do. I have reasons, but doesn't change the fact that I didn't go. I'm happy that I've gone to both Tuesday classes each week. I know now that having class back to back for 4-5 hours isn't what I want to do next semester. The schedule is great, but its just nicer to have it all spread out instead of everything all at once with no chance to breath between classes. Its not easy to transition from multivar to dancing, but thats not the reason for my absence...anyways.

I've found the class refreshing and I like the fact that I sweat. Hopefully that fact doesn't bother other people. I'm self conscious of the fact that I sweat a lot...I can't help it, I just get hot and I sweat, just one of those things I presume. I've been stretching outside of class, but haven't really made progress yet, we'll see what happens.